Why is friendship, when you need one and rejected it

2 months ago one of my dear friend had a severe allergic reaction to latex she was already diagnose with that and had a epi pen with her which had save her life. She was at and outside activity where there was ballon hanging here and there, so she tought that those being outside might not be so bad but that was a mistake becaused with the wind latex get all over the food and eat some of it, she came at 2 fingers to die. Since then she is having a really rought time and decide to make decision and did a clean up in her life and after 6 years of friendship and seing her every week she dicide that I was part of the cleanup she no longer want to see and talk to me. I ask what i did wrong and say she don't want to talk about it. Rejection or being left out I am used to it, I have kept myself from getting close to others for many year to protect me from that since from the very beginning my mom when I was 7 left us with our dad and run away lefting us to see her whenever it please her which could be 3-4 times a year if we were lucky. But this I found it hard to deal with even tho there is missing pages to this story to end it. I understand she is going to a really rought time but I wish I could have been part of her healing process.

respect/violated

I am presently working in a man environment, we are only 5 ladies out of 35-40 mens working there. What is nice about it, is there is less hormones spears between ladies but there is a lot of testosterone which I had to deal with, this week. These mens are usually very nice and friendly in a good way, always willing to help and never forget to say hi when we cross each others path compare to ladies that it is very hard to approach and by chance they look at you, you are really not sure if they are pleased to see you or else... There is that gentleman he is so nice to me and very talkative he enjoyed joking around but this week he kind of make me really unconfortable and I felt like being violated by what he said he didn't mean to hurt me, he was just joking but that is not the type of jokes that I can tolerate. I honestly had to tell him that I can't take those type of jokes but how can you do it without being rude?

WHY...

I've been really worry about one of my close one for quite some time. At first he wasn't very talkative, realy quiet and kept to himself for most of is childhood but in the past 2 years he came out of this and it was more easier to approach and talk with him. But things seems better at the surface but not on the inside. Again at first he wasn't sharing any of it with the outsider but it came to a point where he needed to express himself in a way that not everybody understood. Sharing is inside voices might have scare so of is closed one. We've tried to approach him my husband was very closed to him and enjoyed playing music with him but unfortunatly the problem was deaper. It came to a point he needed to be hospitalise for a while to go thru a battery of test. I just want him to have is life back, to be himself he is just so lovable. I pray that GOD is with him every way of the step he have to go thru, heal him, make a miracle in is life and restore him, give him peace and quieteness in his head. That he can feel GOD being right at is side. This hole situation make me sad and hurt inside for sure that is far from what he feel inside of his head.

How hard could it be

I few years back I've met a lady she was one of my employe and we start talking to each other and do stuff together i've tough that we had develop a nice relationship/ friendship. We had a lot of ups and downs together but things were getting settle quite quickly but about 2 months ago out of the blues she stop talking to me, usually she call me every single night and I do miss her phone call, and we were going for dinner at least once a week or every 2 weeks. But 2 months ago she had suffer an allergy reaction that could have cost her life, I was really worry about that and try my best to show her that I care in the way I can demonstrated it. But since then she cut all contact with by one removing me from her friend list on msn and secondly not answering my phone call. There was one time where she did answer me but her tone of voice was very cold and dry I had ask her a couple of time if she was upset at me and say many time No why would I be but her tone was not friendlier, just before hanging up a repeat the same question telling her that if I did something wrong I would really like to know it so I can't repeat myself again, no comment from her. Everyday I hope that she will call. Why people can't be honest and fix things instead of running away from it.

STOP thinking about you is not a shame

Today I've decide that it was about time a do something nice to myself and I vote for a massage. Even tho the lady was giving me a rought massage it wasn't so bad after all. It was relaxing and stressing at the same time but I decided to let go of the stressing part and only keep the relaxing part.

living in the present time while having past memories

Just recently I got a little puppy chihuahua he is now 12 weeks old. He is a very friendly and is happy dog, he want to be hold quite often but he is also very independant when it come time to play. Sometime he stop and look at our older dog Chubby for behavior reference. CHubby is getting use to it slowly but surely. This little dog of mine bring back quite a few memories from my childwood becaused I had a dog exactly the same.

while struggling not to blame but everything show otherwise

Last week I left work realising that my credit card had desapear in my purse I remember that same morning put it back in my purse loose in the pocket, but as soon I look in my purse it wasn't there anymore, nothing was taking from it that was the only thing loose. So I feel terrible but there is only one person that I could think of that have might take it but at the same time I am in betrayal since she is very nice to me. But there is no one else that have access to my purse since I leave it in the office where she work just beside her desk usually I am there with her but that day I had a lot to do elsewhere and I left my purse there. First thing I done the next morning after making sure I hadn't put it anywhere else I call to report a stolen card. Since then I don't bring my purse inside or I remove all important stuff from it. But today I was working in and out of her office, but there is one time I came back walkin the office and haven't seen me arriving lifting up her head she quickly put something a card ... a credit card in her purse same color as mine.. really akward moment I didn't know what to say' i didn't want to loose whatever we got between us.

Thanksgiving weekend

Here is a description of our thanksgiving week-end in the Gauthier's familly. Friday kids went to their youth group when my husband and I went to sushi can to get dinner HUMMY HUMMY it was nice having a bit of time together. The boys are gone until sunday evening so we are planning a bit of rest too for this week-end. Saturday we spend the day with our nepheew since it was is birthday we went at the movie see beverly hill chihuahua after that we went at the Gauthier for dinner. Sunday it was church time, lunch at wendy's and back home. I had prepare a nice thanksgiving dinner for us, I would had wanted my sister familly over but they had other plan :( Monday early breakfast with my sis in law and her husband and Mark at gabs. Stephane had a music practice during that time I went to see my mom at my sister place where she now live. Back home I decide to bake a cream of turkey thai style which was really delicious here is the recipe.

3 table spoon Melted butter
1/4 cup flour
2 cup of mach potatoes
green onion
1 cup coconut flake
3 slice of pinapple
3 cup turkey thinly dice
3 cup of water
6 cup of milk
Spice ( salt/pepper/garlic salt/sariette/tabasco/soya sauce)