looking in the right direction without looking back too often

During the past year I had learn a lot of things about myself. My husband and I had the great opportunity to meet really nice people that were also having the same passion as us meaning our love for God at the very beggining tho I was having big issues in my life and my relation with God was not so good. But at first we start going to a house group where we met other nice people. That was a lot different for me becaused I always stand in the shadow where no one could reach me, I have been hurt in the past and didn't want to get hurt again. Being raise that I was not allowed to speak while visitors was at home or visiting others I learn that what I will say its not important to others and did not deserve to be listen to. But with all these new people that came into my life in that short period of time I have learn that hey what I say mean a lot to them they are listening and give feed back and I trully enjoyed that time, i had cherish it. It help me to be more confident and to stand up for myself. Unfortunatly those house group doesn't exist anymore and that sadden me tremendously. I wish we could find a new house group where we meet people and share our toughts and feeling and worship the one true GOD. My husband had develop nice friendship with those he met there he even start to play music in 2 bands, for myself I got to meet 2 really cool friends both knew each other from their childhood and they are best friend forever. I wish I can related to that being able to say that I have a best friend since so long but becaused of my background i had a hard time to give myself to others. But I am now more than willing to be there for my friends that are there at this time, but I sincerely need GOD help with that since I dont want to intrude or invade them also.