what a mistake I've made

A few weeks back I had delete my blog and realised right after doing it that, that was a really dumb and stupid mistake. I guess I was getting discourage to open my heart in my blog and no one reply to it. In the mean time I really hurt my friend who had design my blog for me and that wasn't the idea at all, doing the step I've done, I haven't think about anything else then myself. My blog was more a journal to me and realise that either way if people reply or not I need the blog for myself. I wish I could have retrieved my old blog without the text to make this fresh but unfortunatly that is not possible. I am so sorry that i have hurt a really good friend.