looking in the right direction without looking back too often

During the past year I had learn a lot of things about myself. My husband and I had the great opportunity to meet really nice people that were also having the same passion as us meaning our love for God at the very beggining tho I was having big issues in my life and my relation with God was not so good. But at first we start going to a house group where we met other nice people. That was a lot different for me becaused I always stand in the shadow where no one could reach me, I have been hurt in the past and didn't want to get hurt again. Being raise that I was not allowed to speak while visitors was at home or visiting others I learn that what I will say its not important to others and did not deserve to be listen to. But with all these new people that came into my life in that short period of time I have learn that hey what I say mean a lot to them they are listening and give feed back and I trully enjoyed that time, i had cherish it. It help me to be more confident and to stand up for myself. Unfortunatly those house group doesn't exist anymore and that sadden me tremendously. I wish we could find a new house group where we meet people and share our toughts and feeling and worship the one true GOD. My husband had develop nice friendship with those he met there he even start to play music in 2 bands, for myself I got to meet 2 really cool friends both knew each other from their childhood and they are best friend forever. I wish I can related to that being able to say that I have a best friend since so long but becaused of my background i had a hard time to give myself to others. But I am now more than willing to be there for my friends that are there at this time, but I sincerely need GOD help with that since I dont want to intrude or invade them also.

That was a first and a good way to learn

For our first time yesterday we did a reptile show some member of the familly approach us if we could do that since they were having a fall festival in their church. Soo Stephane gladly accepted it. He well prepare himself with tones of information. We bring all the animal we have including the furrets and Max the chihuahua. We had over 11 type of reptiles/amphibients all together. We could say that there was at least 50-60 kids mostly between the age of 2-13 plus all the parents. Kids were curious to see them but parents was curious to have information, the even went well. That was a demonstration of about an hours, there was a bit of hands on. They seems to really enjoyed it and it was mutual. From a first experience we alway learn new things, how to proceed, what to do or not, where to implify and how to present it to other. We were happy that the weather permit us to move or reptiles/amphibients. It was a nice experience and will surrely do it again if we get approach to do it.

Oups, out of a sudden it reappear

Not so long ago I mentionned that one of my credit card was missing from my purse, and the last day I work this week I finish work to find that same card in my purse again, there it is!! I told myself. But I did learn quite a few things from that person and really thinks that God have open a door for me to listen and react. What I've learn from her is that she is a strong gambler, she gamble all the times, via internet and via poker with friend. She is way over debt. I didn't even know that you could gamble over internet and you will actually received actual money from it. She even go on the site where she gamble and show me her account at that time she was pleased to show me that she had win and waiting for a check $3000, ah yes there is only one problem did I mention her account well it was her husband account since it is, she have to tell him that she haven't stop playing since her own account was suspended per her husband request she start going on her husband account and can't cash the check becaused he have to claim it. All that to say that it make me sad to see that people this is what make them happy instead of pleasure of life, running to cheat your way to have money instead of relaying on GOD love. There is always a easy way out but its not always the good one. I am really planning to show her the way to GOD love.

Why is friendship, when you need one and rejected it

2 months ago one of my dear friend had a severe allergic reaction to latex she was already diagnose with that and had a epi pen with her which had save her life. She was at and outside activity where there was ballon hanging here and there, so she tought that those being outside might not be so bad but that was a mistake becaused with the wind latex get all over the food and eat some of it, she came at 2 fingers to die. Since then she is having a really rought time and decide to make decision and did a clean up in her life and after 6 years of friendship and seing her every week she dicide that I was part of the cleanup she no longer want to see and talk to me. I ask what i did wrong and say she don't want to talk about it. Rejection or being left out I am used to it, I have kept myself from getting close to others for many year to protect me from that since from the very beginning my mom when I was 7 left us with our dad and run away lefting us to see her whenever it please her which could be 3-4 times a year if we were lucky. But this I found it hard to deal with even tho there is missing pages to this story to end it. I understand she is going to a really rought time but I wish I could have been part of her healing process.

respect/violated

I am presently working in a man environment, we are only 5 ladies out of 35-40 mens working there. What is nice about it, is there is less hormones spears between ladies but there is a lot of testosterone which I had to deal with, this week. These mens are usually very nice and friendly in a good way, always willing to help and never forget to say hi when we cross each others path compare to ladies that it is very hard to approach and by chance they look at you, you are really not sure if they are pleased to see you or else... There is that gentleman he is so nice to me and very talkative he enjoyed joking around but this week he kind of make me really unconfortable and I felt like being violated by what he said he didn't mean to hurt me, he was just joking but that is not the type of jokes that I can tolerate. I honestly had to tell him that I can't take those type of jokes but how can you do it without being rude?

WHY...

I've been really worry about one of my close one for quite some time. At first he wasn't very talkative, realy quiet and kept to himself for most of is childhood but in the past 2 years he came out of this and it was more easier to approach and talk with him. But things seems better at the surface but not on the inside. Again at first he wasn't sharing any of it with the outsider but it came to a point where he needed to express himself in a way that not everybody understood. Sharing is inside voices might have scare so of is closed one. We've tried to approach him my husband was very closed to him and enjoyed playing music with him but unfortunatly the problem was deaper. It came to a point he needed to be hospitalise for a while to go thru a battery of test. I just want him to have is life back, to be himself he is just so lovable. I pray that GOD is with him every way of the step he have to go thru, heal him, make a miracle in is life and restore him, give him peace and quieteness in his head. That he can feel GOD being right at is side. This hole situation make me sad and hurt inside for sure that is far from what he feel inside of his head.

How hard could it be

I few years back I've met a lady she was one of my employe and we start talking to each other and do stuff together i've tough that we had develop a nice relationship/ friendship. We had a lot of ups and downs together but things were getting settle quite quickly but about 2 months ago out of the blues she stop talking to me, usually she call me every single night and I do miss her phone call, and we were going for dinner at least once a week or every 2 weeks. But 2 months ago she had suffer an allergy reaction that could have cost her life, I was really worry about that and try my best to show her that I care in the way I can demonstrated it. But since then she cut all contact with by one removing me from her friend list on msn and secondly not answering my phone call. There was one time where she did answer me but her tone of voice was very cold and dry I had ask her a couple of time if she was upset at me and say many time No why would I be but her tone was not friendlier, just before hanging up a repeat the same question telling her that if I did something wrong I would really like to know it so I can't repeat myself again, no comment from her. Everyday I hope that she will call. Why people can't be honest and fix things instead of running away from it.